hey guys.. was training this few days.. it seemed that i am becoming fitter and better... actually i found out that running isn't such a bad thing after all... you get to keep fit, get to stay alert, and most importantly, it is a training for the mind of preservance.. i ran and ran.. nowadays, i've sleepless nights.. and it is due to a few memories of people in my life.. i hope they are alright.. they are always making me worried for them.. but it'll work out somehow? hehe... i guess i can't be a saint but neither do i wanna be a sinner yea? and something bad happened today too.. why does things happen? it all happens for a reason... to make people bond together more.. but sometimes, mistakes are made or even misunderstandings is there... why are there so many questions? nowadays i'm thinking.. if there are humans, why are there spirits? where does all of them come from? we believe in God too? but where do God come from? why is there a world today? it is all mystery? tell me? where do all the things come from? anyway.. it poured heavily nowadays... it seem to dampen my spirits too... hais... can't believe that things happened and some of them are never solved... sometimes i feel that i can hear people's evil thoughts... some wanting things to happen and some waiting for things to happen.. what am i suppose to do? who can help me? but 1 thing for sure that things will work out somehow... haas....